Steve's Story

This had changed my life very much. I am now not able to work and am losing my apartment. I will put on the street from this. I lost the women I love because of this. I basically try and stay alive and drink to calm the pain down. For some reason alcohol seems to be the only think that takes the pain away. I have burning sensations all over my body. Pain in all areas of my body. Leg pain Arm pain chest pain. Heart beats irregularly and flutters constantly where I feel I am dying. Spine feels like it will snap in half. feel like things are crawling under my skin. Leg muscles feel like they are tearing. Heat flashes, cold spells. Lack of sleep, can not sleep at all wake up every hour like clockwork. Constantly tired all the time. I wonder what it will be like to live on the street when I get evicted with this illness. Winter time now and that will be fun in a cardboard box. Hopefully I can manage to find vitamins or have people buy them for me so i can try and treat myself.

Fear I will have a stroke or heart attack, because of chest pain.

Still have my memory in tack and concentration, but I feel like I am fried or continually frying in the brain due to this drug.

I guess if I die at least I will know what it was from now - what a great thought, but I suppose sometimes I just don't care, no one else does.

Guess I will stop typing now since I feel someone is driving a nail into head and am having shocks all over.

I wish no one this pain and suffering.

Last Updated 1/01/05